In the past few weeks, God has really been working a miracle in my heart. Throughout my struggle of trying for a baby, I have felt more emotions than I really even knew I had. I was angry at God, bitter with people who had babies, depressed when I saw a sweet newborn, and the list goes on and on. People would always tell me "God's timing is perfect" or things of that nature and I would literally want to punch them in the face. I knew they were trying to encourage me but I didn't want to hear it. I wanted them to feel my pain. Not a good place to be. But God is good and He's healing my heart. I started looking at other areas of my life and how INCREDIBLY faithful my God is. Changing colleges my sophomore year was tough but God was faithful and blessed me with amazing friends and a Godly husband. Moving to Texas was THE HARDEST THING I'VE EVER DONE but God continues to pour out His blessings for my obedience. Our life here is beyond blessed. When I look at these things, I'm amazed at His faithfulness. And guess what? He's being faithful to me as I type this. I was doing my devotional a few nights ago and it asked me to reflect on Isaiah 53. I never made it to chapter 53 because 54 jumped off the page at me. This is how The Message states it-
1-6 Sing, barren woman, who has never had a baby. Fill the air with song, you who've never experienced childbirth! You're ending up with far more children than all those childbearing women. "God says so!" Clear lots of ground for your tents! Make your tents large. Spread out! Think big! Use plenty of rope, drive the tent pegs deep. You're going to need lots of elbow room for your growing family. You're going to take over whole nations; you're going to resettle abandoned cities.
Pretty incredible right? After I read that, I looked at scripture references to it and found this-
Tell me now, you who have become so enamored with the law: Have you paid close attention to that law? Abraham, remember, had two sons: one by the slave woman and one by the free woman. The son of the slave woman was born by human connivance; the son of the free woman was born by God's promise. Galatians 4:24
When I read this I was reminded of God's promise to Sarah and that His promise for me is GOOD. Then His Word led me to this-
Those who were well fed are now starving, and those who were starving are now full. The childless woman now has seven children, and the woman with many children wastes away. 1 Samuel 2:5
AMAZING stuff! Why would I NOT put my trust in such a faithful God? I can't find a reason either. Sorry this is super long but God put this on my heart and I just wanted to share it. Hope it blesses you where you're at.