All about the Crowder's

I haven nothing much to say but I actually have TIME to blog so here's a little survey I stole from my friend, Lindsey's blog. Enjoy getting to know "The Crowder's."

♥What are your middle names?
Renee and Carroll. Guess which is mine and his.

♥How long have you been together?
Married for almost 4...together for almost 7.

♥How long did you know each other before you started dating?
A couple of weeks.

♥Who asked who out?
Chris asked me.

♥Who made the first move?
Chris. Definitely moved in for the kiss after I ate Taco Bell. I'm sure that was tasty.

♥How old are each of you?
I'm 26, he's 28.

♥Did you go to the same school?
The same college.

♥Are you from the same home town?
Nope. I'm from St. Louis, he's from Dallas.

♥Who is the smartest?
That's not a very nice question! We're both smart in different ways. He's a GENIUS when it comes to money and I'm an idiot. We're just different =)

♥Who majored in what?
Me, elem. education. Chris, Kinesiology/Health Science.

♥Who is the most sensitive?
Me FOR SURE. I'm ultra sensitive!

♥Where do you eat out most as a couple?
It use to be Corner Bakery but we hardly ever get to eat TOGETHER now that we're in football season.

♥Where is the furthest you two have traveled together as a couple?
Probably Mexico. Or California. Mexico isn't that far from Texas.

♥Who has the worst temper?
Me. Not good.

♥How many children do you want?
As many as God gives us. I'm hoping that's at least one.

♥Who does the cooking?
Me. Poor Chris can hardly boil water.

♥Who is more social?
We're both pretty social but Chris is a little more than me.

♥Who is the neat-freak?
Me. Chris has no problem being messy.

♥Who is the most stubborn?
Chris. I'm pretty stubborn myself though.

♥Who wakes up earlier?
Me. Not fun. at. all.

♥Where was your first date?
We went to see the movie Signs. Super romantic, huh?

♥Who has the bigger family?
Me. By about a thousand people.

♥Do you get flowers often?
No and I'm not complaining. I would rather have a Starbucks or a little present than flowers.

♥How do you spend the holidays?
We split. If he gets Thanksgiving, I get Christmas. If I get Christmas, he gets Thanksgiving.

♥Who is more jealous?
Neither of us are very jealous people.

♥Who eats more?
Chris. But don't be deceived, I can put some food AWAY!

♥What do you do for a living?
I teach third grade. Chris teaches Inclusion and coaches football/baseball.

♥Who does the laundry?
We share it. But mostly me.

♥Who’s better with the computer?
Me. Chris could care less about electronics.

♥Who drives when you are together?
Chris. Even though I'm usually scared for my life and am a TERRIBLE backseat driver.

♥What is "your" song?
No song. We danced out of our wedding to "Everlasting Love" which was pretty fun. I think that officially just became our song.

Now you know everything you never really needed to know about us. You are SO very welcome.

Kids Say the Darndest Things

Here's how our spelling test went down Friday morning-

Me: Boys and girls, remember our spelling words have an "ow" or "ou" pattern in them. If you don't have an "ow" or "ou" in your word, it's going to be wrong.

Sweet little TEXAS boy: Don't you say "OU" to me...I'm a Longhorns' fan!

I COULD NOT hold it together after that. Only in Texas!

2 years of infertility

I was reminded quite a bit this past weekend about us still not being pregnant. I very rarely check my email at home but I checked it randomly on Sunday morning. Apparently I signed up when I found out I was pregnant on some website that tells you what's going on with the baby/your body and received an email from them. The email title was "Today you're 32 weeks." I lost it. I would be having showers, the nursery would be set up, I would know the sex. I have done SO well at giving that to God but I feel like grabbing it back now, ya know?

I have a friend who has been trying to get pregnant for as long as we have (did I mention this month is our 2 year anniversary of trying?). She is 35 and getting very impatient. This month they did IVF and found out this weekend that she is pregnant (not blood test confirmed yet but positives on 5 HPTs). I was SO happy for her I cried. I've never been so happy for another person in my life. Then the bitterness and greed set in. I now have no one on this journey with me. I HATE being that way because she is my friend and I'm SO happy for her but I want it so badly for myself. The longer I struggle with infertility, the more I see my sinful nature.

After the kids left today, I put my ipod on. A song came on and IMMEDIATELY sent me into tears. It's exactly how I feel about my sinful nature and why God allows us to go through these things. I thought I would post it...maybe it will help you where you are at too.

Let it all out
get it all out
rip it out remove it
don't be alarmed
when the wound begins to bleed

cause we're so scared to find out
what this life's all about
so scared we're going to lose it
not knowing all along
that's exactly what we need

and today I will trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
but tomorrow, upon hearing what I did
I will stare at you in disbelief
oh, inconsistent me
crying out for consistency

and you said I know that this will hurt
but if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse
If the burden seems too much to bear
Remember the end will justify the pain it took to get us there

and I'll let it be known
at times I have shown
signs of all my weakness
but somewhere in me
there is strength

and you promise me
that you believe
in time I will defeat this
cause somewhere in me
there is strength

and today I will trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
and I'll try my best to just forget
that that man isn't me

reach out to me
make my heart brand new
every beat will be for you
for you

and I know you know
you touched my life
when you touched my heavy heart and made it light

Bad Blogger and CAAAUTE Shoes

I've officially become the worst blogger ever. It's IM-POSS-I-BLE to keep up with it and work at the same time! I'll try harder.

After church this morning, Chris and I went shopping around. I've been eyeing some cute slouch boots for a while now (okay, since the weather dropped below 90 which has only been about a week) so we headed to Rack Room Shoes. Wouldn't you know, they're having a "buy one get one 50% off" sale! So I bought a pair of cute pumps for school and these beautys....

Hello LOVEEEEERR! Obsessed. I love these boots with a cute little fall outfit like this one...

Super cute, right? Now to find the perfect pair of skinny jeans....

No work tomorrow (thank you Christopher Columbus!) so maybe I'll fill you in on the rest of my life then!