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Can you even believe that? Here's the story.

Chris and I were 100% ready to adopt. After 3 years of trying and 2 miscarriages, I was done. I wanted much more to be a mother than to be pregnant. Chris completely agreed and we dove head first into the adoption plan as I'm sure has been very evident through this blog. We began fundraising, went to the first meeting with the adoption agency, were tracking families, etc. I truly believe that the Lord wanted us to start the process and through it He has brought some amazing stories and great friendships. Pregnancy was COMPLETELY off the radar. I didn't care about being pregnant, just wanted to be a mom.

And then it happened.

Chris and I were in St. Louis visiting my family for Thanksgiving. I was a few days late but didn't think much of it because being a few days late is not completely abnormal for me, especially after my miscarriage in July. Chris really wanted me to test and I was incredibly frustrated with him. I was finally fine with not being pregnant and all he wanted was for me to test. I waited several days because I was crampy and then Chris finally talked me into it. He went into Walgreens, bought the test, and we headed home. I went in the bathroom with the test and really was pretty angry. I've taken a TON of pregnancy tests and even the ones that were positive never ended well. It seemed like this whole pregnancy thing was just not for us. I waited for the words to pop up on the screen and there it was-PREGNANT. I have never felt anxiety like I felt in that moment. I walked out of the bathroom, looked at Chris and said "You're not going to believe this". We both just started laughing! What in the world? I've tried FOREVER to get pregnant and now I pregnant in the middle of this adoption process! I called my doctor in Texas immediately and they called in a prescription for progesterone right away. I started taking it that day. I'm so thankful my doctor was so gracious to do that without ever seeing me or confirming the pregnancy. After 2 losses, my heart couldn't handle another one.

My doctor has done a TON of sonograms because of my history. Get ready for some pics!

Here's baby at 5w5d. I about went in to cardiac arrest because the gestational sac measured a week small. I off course thought that I had lost the pregnancy because of my history. Let's just say sonograms have not been friendly to me. After that ultrasound, I was totally discouraged. I mentally prepared myself to lose the pregnancy. I know that sounds terrible but I just knew that it was too good to be true. The doctor was not concerned with the measurement but put me on high risk because of my history and asked me to come back in two weeks.

We went back to the doctor and saw a sweet heartbeat and only measured 3 days small. The heartbeat was the most INCREDIBLE thing I have ever heard. The first fetal heartbeat measured at 130.

Here's baby at 8w2d and measuring 8w1d. The fetal heartbeat this time was 180! I drank a Sprite before and I think baby may have had a sugar rush. My doctor said everything looked great and she saw no reason to keep me high risk. WOOHOO!

The latest and greatest-sweet baby at 12w2d. The heartbeat was 158. I still cannot believe that I am carrying a baby. It has been such a journey to get here and I am reminded every time I look at my stomach how amazing God's faithfulness is.