We're going to see the specialist...

Sunday we found out that we, once again, we're not pregnant. It was our 3rd and last round of Clomid so I gave my doctor a call to find out exactly what needed to happen next. At my last visit she let me know that we would probably need to see an infertility specialist if the Clomid didn't work. I thought I was emotionally prepared for that....WRONG. She referred me to some specialists, gave me some websites, and told me some prices. That's when I really lost it. Chris and I have been saving for an event like this but I was really hoping that we would magically become pregnant on our own. We downloaded and filled out 20 pages of paperwork last night to try to get an appointment. It was really difficult for me-thankfully Chris handles it much better and can calm me down. Please be praying for us during this emotional time, our doctors as they deal with us, and that we would seek God for answers and not do anything without His guidance.

If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks he must believe and not doubt because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.

James 1:5-7

Our battle with infertility

I just wanted to share a little bit about the journey that we have been on with infertility. In October 2007, Chris and I decided to start trying to make a baby Crowder. It was an exciting and scary time but we were ready for the role of parenthood. After about 3 months of trying, I had a terrible feeling that something wasn't right. I can't explain it but I knew that there was going to be a struggle. When we reached the 6 months point, I went to my gynocolegist for a routine pap smear. I told her we were trying to get pregnant and she said if we hit the 6 months mark and nothing has happened to give her a call. I quickly let her know we were already there. She said there was most likely nothing to worry about but we would go ahead and start some testing. Chris had a semen analysis and everything came back perfect. I had blood work done to make sure I was ovulating and a HSG (a vaginal xray where they shoot dye into the fallopian tubes to check for blockage) and everything came back perfect. My doctor said to just keep trying and to call back if nothing happened in a year. In October I went back to see her and we decided to do more blood work. I have low progesterone levels which will make it difficult to sustain a pregnancy (I'll take a supplement when we do get pregnant) but shouldn't be an issue in conceiving. She decided to start me on Clomid, an ovulation inducing medication, to help me "super ovulate." I went in after my first round for an ultrasound and had okay follicles but nothing to write home about. Month 2 I had HUGE follicles and about 12 of them. We thought it would definitely be our month. Unsuccessful. I'm now in month 3 of Clomid and possibly the last month of it. After this we will see an Infertility Specialist and decide where to go from there. The biggest challenge is not knowing what is wrong. It would be great if we knew what to fix but everything is coming back great making it very difficult. PLEASE pray for Chris and I to have patience and to trust the Lord's plan. I know it's far better than anything we thought up on our own but it's easy to lose sight of that. We'll keep you updated on everything that goes on with it and I promise to not be so long winded next time!